The Sun Wheel

Becca and I at Disneyland (actually, California Adventure) on the Sun Wheel.

I love this picture. I loved to hold my little girls, and have them snuggle in to me like this.

I wasn't able to go on the Sun Wheel this last time that we went to Disneyland. This picture popped into my mind, and I couldn't bring myself to going on it. Maybe next time.

Sisters!

This picture was taken at a primary activity last year. I love the looks on the faces of my two girls.

Cassidy is such a wonderful older sister. She was so excited to share a bedroom with Rebecca when Brenda was pregnant with Rachel. She always took care of her younger sisters - and continues to take care of her brother as well.

Some nights, we would hear singing coming from the girls' room. When Becca couldn't sleep, Cassidy would sing songs to her. Becca learned a lot of songs from Cassidy. One day, Becca just started singing the rainbow song ("Why are there so many songs about rainbows"). We later found out that was one of the songs that Cassie would sing to help Becca sleep.

They were such wonderful and good sisters! I love all my girls (and my boy too... :) ) !

All the Cousins

This was last year, on the 4th of July (Cassie's birthday) - before going to the rodeo. Every year, our entire family goes up to the rodeo in Oakley, UT on the 4th of July. The only year we missed it was the year that Cassidy was born. Here are all of the cousins at lunch at the park above Grandma Toone's house.

Such beautiful children! I miss my girls...but I still love spending time with the rest of the family. It helps me to remember them.

I miss you Becca and Rachel! I love you so much!

Best Friends

From "Best Cousins" to "Best Friends".

These are Becca's two best friends, "A" and "B" (their names *really* start with "A" and "B"...) She would always want to play with one or the other of them. This is them on a joyschool trip to the pumpkin patch.

I hope to be able to watch these two girls grow - and remember my Becca and see what she would have been able to accomplish had she remained with us.

Yesterday, I had a flashback of a time I had with Rebecca. Back in November, she had a sleep-over at her grandma's house - and was dropped off at my office for me to take her home from here. That day, I was asked to find a city map for a guy who was moving from Philadelphia to Utah...so Becca and I drove around to different places trying to find a map for "my friend Sam" - which is what Becca called him.

She talked about "my friend Sam" for weeks afterwards - which makes me happy that we were able to make those memories together. Every time we drove on Highway 89 (where we did a lot of our looking), she would ask if we were going to find a map for Sam.

I am SOOO grateful that I have memories such as these to help me carry on until the time that I am able to see and hold my girls again.

I think Mr. Ricky's Done Enough

Best Cousins

This is a picture that Kara took one day when Becca was over playing with Amanda and Lily. We cropped this picture for our new individual picture of Becca. She is SOOOO beautiful! I can only imagine how beautiful she would have been as she grew up.

The day after Rebecca died, Logan mentioned it to Amanda and Lily. Amanda started to cry and said that "Rebecca was my BEST cousin!" She really was. It was so fun to watch the girls all play together - they were all close to the same ages. It was so nice to have best friends that were also cousins.

I miss the girls so much! It's especially hard today...of all the gifts that I wanted to get Brenda today, the one that I couldn't get here was the one that I know she wants the most - the girls. I know that some day we will be able to have them and raise them again. And I know that Brenda will be an excellent mother to them when we get them back...same as she has been (and continues to be) to all our children.

I love you Brenda! I love you Becca and Rachel!

The Year of the Purses

Last Christmas was the "Year of the Purses". My parents gave each of the little grand-daughters a purse. This was Rachel's.

In addition, Santa brought Rebecca a dress-up purse to play with as well.

Both of the girls loved their purses. Rachel especially carried this one around all over the house.

I love the expression of wonder on her face. She was so sweet and innocent. She was so beautiful and kind. She was so loving and happy. I miss her so much!