Welcome Home Surprise

When we got home from our trip yesterday, we went to see the park. The boy scouts in our ward, at the suggestion of the Layton City mayor, planted a little memorial area for the girls at the park around the corner from our house. Yellow pansies, rose bushes, and pink flowering trees around a bench...just a few yards from the childrens playground. VERY beautiful, and VERY thoughtful on the part of all those involved. THANK YOU!

The Radio Game

Becca loved music - so did Rachel. Here are Becca, Cassidy, and Braden listening to their aunt Katie playing the guitar.

I miss singing with Becca. She was my kindred spirit. She could identify singers of songs - even if she hadn't heard the song before. I loved playing "The Radio Game" with her - by just shuffling my iPod, and having her guess the song (both title and artist). Generally, she could do it within 4 or 5 seconds of the song beginning. Her favorite songs were by Pink, Aerosmith, and Green Day. Her all-time favorite song was "Human" by the Killers. We would sing along to them together, when we were in the car, or even just in the basement after a day of work.

I also loved dancing with Rachel. Every night, I would lay on the couch after dinner, and before bed, and Rachel would come over and want to dance with me - so we would turn on some music, and dance.

I miss dancing. I miss singing. I miss the Radio Game. I can listen to their favorite songs, but I haven't yet been able to just sit down and listen to music for any extended period of time. Hopefully, I'll be able to get to that point again.

Messy Face Part II

The last picture was of Rachel making a mess eating - so I thought I'd share this one of Becca. And yes - I don't usually post on Saturday, but I felt like I needed to. :)

This picture was taken on a field trip (for Braden's joy school) to the Tasty's Doughnut shop. They got to make doughnuts with "Baker Mackie" and then afterwards, they ate them. I love Becca's face in this picture.

Becca loved to eat doughnuts - especially for breakfast. Next to "big fancy breakfast," I think it was probably her favorite thing to do. Rachel, however, was completely ambivalent towards them...she was just fine eating her oatmeal.

This morning, I ate a doughnut, and remembered this picture. It brought tears to my eyes. I miss my girls so much! As fast as the time is going by (2 months already), at the same time, it feels SOOOO slow - and to think I have to wait the remainder of a lifetime to see them again is hard at times. However, I thank the Lord for the times that He has allowed us to feel the presence of our sweet little girls - and I hope that I can have many more chances to feel them with me while I wait for that wonderful reunion!

My View

Yes, I know that Brenda posted a link on this last night, bu i thought I'd share my thoughts and view on it too.

http://www.sltrib.com/news/ci_14837495

This came faster than we ever thought it would. We are very glad that the deaths of out two girls was not in vain. We are already beginning to see lots of good coming of it. Hopefully, this will help make it so that others will not have to go though what we have had to.

Not in Vain

A small triumph for my Becca and my Rachel.

http://www.ksl.com/index.php?nid=148&sid=10305855

Birthday Cake

Rachel had a blast with her birthday cake last year. She probably ate the equivalent of 2 full pieces.

Even with a messy face, she was such a beautiful little girl. I miss her so much!

She would eat oatmeal (of all things) with the same gusto. You would think you were feeding her ice cream as much as she enjoyed it.

I've been missing my girls a lot the past few days. Some days are harder than others - but the feeling is starting to come that I'm not always sad and gloomy. Rather, I'm excited (and at times a bit impatient) to be with them again.

The waiting is what's hard. :(

The Merry

Rebecca's favorite ride, everywhere we went, was the merry-go-round. She used to call it "The Merry" - and it was the first (and lots of times, only) thing that she wanted to ride on.

I love this picture, because she is looking up at the mechanisms in wonderment - trying to figure out how it worked.

She was such a smart little girl. I miss her so much!