My Girls

Here are all my girls!

You can see where they all get their beautiful looks (from Brenda). Though I had someone once tell me "Your girls must have gotten your looks...because your wife still has hers!" :)

I love all these girls! Every one of our children have truly been "mama's girls" - and they generally would want to spend time with her. The only exception was when I would try to take (sometimes forcefully) the youngest during family vacations so that Brenda could have a "true" vacation.

I also would take them during church. I have always tried to take care of the children during church - taking them out of the meeting when they need it, and taking them to priesthood when I could. These past few months are the first time since I was a primary teacher (almost 6 years ago) that I haven't had a baby with me during the 3 hours of church. It's kind of hard to get used to. This past Sunday, I was pretty sad because my shoulder was lonely.

Rachel would have been going into nursery in about a month. It was a time we were really looking forward to - but now, it's a bittersweet time. I am glad, however, that the primary in our ward has reprinted the class lists so as not to have Rachel and Rebecca's names on the doors. I was afraid of looking, for fear that it would make me upset. I looked a couple of weeks ago, and noticed that they had been removed. I find that small things like that really make a big difference in my life, and I am thankful for the thoughtfulness and compassion of others.

I miss having Rachel. I miss having Rebecca. I would give anything to have them back! However, I know that all things we endure are for a purpose - I just pray that one day I may be made aware of that purpose...so I can rejoice in the grand scheme of things.